Coping, Treatment

The Lesson of the Hoodoo

September 27, 2017

We took a short walk by the hoodoos this morning. Not my usual 5km but still I was able to enjoy my beloved badlands.  A Lyme treatment lesson for me from the hoodoos occurred:


Hoodoos take millions of years to form. Each hoodoo is a sandstone pillar resting on a thick base of shale that is capped by a large stone. Hoodoos are fragile and can erode completely if the capstone is dislodged. I almost dislodged my “capstone” and eroded away recently…
For the past few years I went hard and fast with treatments, taking multiple meds and daily IVs, or full doses of tinctures. I didn’t care if it meant days and weeks in bed herxing. I went in for the kill and it worked, but also wore me down and caused emotional/psychological distress. After a recent period of sweet relief, if not remission, I have felt Lyme creeping back. So I went back on full treatment at my usual intense level. Herx central. Big mistake. I can’t go back to that again. I can’t be bed bound and miserable. I can’t do that to my husband again, or my new son. And my body has had enough major treatment without breaks. I feel like more stress will cause permanent damage and not healing. Besides, Lyme is chronic, so what’s the rush? My capstone is peace. When I lose my peace it’s a sign something is wrong. My sanity and joy erode away. And that’s what happened last week. Anxiety took over, I was irritable, and I herxed so badly it hurt those around me. As such, my life began to erode. Now I switch to a lower gear. I will go gently forward, increasing doses slowly to draw out and kill residual infections without the quick intensity of before. Like my beloved hoodoos, I will stand strong against the winds and rain of disease, while maintaining the protective capstone of peace.

 

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2 Comments

  • Reply Janet Grabner October 1, 2017 at 10:26 pm

    Congratulations on your new baby! All the best to you all. I think you are a wise woman..

    • Reply Jillian October 6, 2017 at 2:00 am

      Thank you! I’m trying…I need all the wisdom possible because this new mom thing is wonderfully scary lol.

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